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Nov 21, Christy rated it it was amazing Shelves: audio , ya-challenge. And if he went into the dark again, this time I would be there to find him- to follow him. Because I thought, perhaps quite immaturely, that my love could help him. Maybe our love could do more than just help- Maybe it could heal him. This is a story of first loves, intense and passionate.

A story of two people, so in love, they thought it was all they needed. If they had each other, everything would be okay. Their love was crazy and it was beautiful. It bordered on being obsessive at times. This is a story of two people who become completely dependent on each other for their happiness. This is the story of Clayton and Maggie. Maggie was an ordinary high school senior. She was close with her parents and her two best friends, Rachel and Daniel. She was involved in sports, did well in school.

She led a fairly average, yet boring life. That is until she met Clayton. Clay was a new student who transferred from a school in Florida. He seemed standoffish in the beginning to everyone. He was quiet and mysterious. Maggie literally ran into him. She knew there was something special about Clay.

Despite his withdrawn personality, they became friends. Maggie quickly realized Clay had some issues. He could have terrible mood swings, and sometimes just seemed off. Other times, he could be wonderful. Their friendship grew and they developed strong feelings for one another.

They fell in love. Have there ever been two people who loved each other as much as we did? I couldn't put it into words the way we felt about each other. Maggie was exceptionally devoted to Clay. There were many times she should have walked away from him, but she stayed. Her parents and friends tried to be supportive, but grew to be concerned for her and Clay's relationship. Their love for each other was heart warming and heart breaking. They were addicted to each other.

We existed in this symbolic relationship where our hearts beat and our lungs breathed only for each other. Was all first love this intense? Clay- I adored Clay. If you know anyone who suffers from mental illness, you know how difficult it can be for that person. His parents make it harder than it already is. Mags is everything to Clay.

Without her, I'm not sure what would have happened to him. Its scary to think about. He truly loves her, but he can become manic, get possessive and extremely jealous- which is very taxing on their relationship.

She can be really helpful to Clay, but also enables him some. I can think, hell, breathe when we're together. Even though their relationship was dysfunctional, it was beautiful as well. Clay's letter to Mags at the end of the book had me in tears. The author did an amazing job with this story and the characters. The end gave me hope for Clay and Maggie. I cannot wait for the sequel! No one deserves a happy ending more than these two.

I'm so glad this is not the end of their story. View all 21 comments. Nov 23, Amy Foxy Blogs rated it it was amazing Shelves: books , stars , pennies-deal , loaned. I finished this morning but have not been able to write a review because of the pain I feel right now. I purchased this book three years ago and like most of my books it got buried in a pile on my kindle.

The title, Find Me in the Dark, should have clued me in on what I was getting into… mental illness. When I got to the end of this one I was struggling to finish it because one of my closest friends did a similar thing that happens in the end of the book.

That scene alone triggered a lot of memories for me and has thrown me into a funk. Talking about our personal experiences can be very therapeutic and yet right now I feel vulnerable because this book hit home for me. Everyone has book triggers that make some stories next to impossible, for them, to read because of personal experiences.

The story becomes too real and painful. My personal experience with my friend has made reading and writing this review very painful. View all 94 comments. Dec 18, xrysa rated it it was amazing Shelves: contemporary. Some people are bound to love forever. She was freaking out she'll never find love until she mets Clayton.

I would follow you into hell if I had to … You are all I want for the rest of my life. He mana Some people are bound to love forever. He managed to invade into her mind without even trying. Clay for some reasons is social misfit and has no desire to interact with people but Maggie is persistent to talk to him , to be his friend. They start to spend more and more time together. Getting to know each other better , comes up with a brutal way.

Cant we just hook up and it not be all serious? Maggie is his saviour and the one that makes his life significant again. Yet , love can win anything and Maggie is determined to make him feel normal again but this is not enough when Clay is not view spoiler [taking his meds.

Getting angry all the time and the whole personality switch was pretty crazy. He pushes everyone away and especially Maggie. Teenagers sometimes do reckless things and what these two did was too bad. Now prove it. The way they meet each other is ordinary but the rest of the story will definitely captivate you.

This is not an easy read , though. Clay's view spoiler [mood changes hide spoiler ] are happening all the time and sometimes it is scary. Maggie is a very strong girl. Dealing with these issues is very difficult and she handled it pretty well except from the end. View all 71 comments. Nov 25, Jennifer Kyle rated it it was amazing Shelves: favorites , book-boyfriends , cry-baby-books. Meredith Walters for giving life to Clayton Reed! Find You in the Dark is a true to life depiction of a young adult suffering from mental illness.

We experienced his highs and lows, manic episodes, his anger and his desperation to feel normal through the point of view of his girlfriend Maggie. I too love someone who suffers some of the same problems as C 4. I too love someone who suffers some of the same problems as Clayton. Mental Illness affects not only the diagnosed but their family and friends as well. Maggie fell for Clayton and saw past his illness and took the time to be his friend.

Although it terrified her she never let him down or alone in the dark. I have high hopes that Clayton can become the man he wants to be.

I finally saw what my world could be. What being normal and happy could look like. Shelves: mental-illness , made-me-feel , dark , fav-ya. This heartbreakingly real and gut-wrenching portrayal of a young man suffering crippling mental illness and his journey of survival through the love and salvation of a young women, totally gutted me; I fell completely and deeply in pain and in love with Clay and Maggie. Their story was honest and felt so real, and it breaks my heart to know that many young people are suffering through this type of pain.

Because you make me feel free. But your love saved me. View all 28 comments. Oct 20, Angie - Angie's Dreamy Reads rated it it was amazing. This book is an emotional, touching story, that takes us on a journey as we discover the hardships of someone suffering from a serious mental illness and how that illness can affect every facet of their lives as well as those they love.

Mental health does not discriminate, affecting millions of people throughout the world. I went into this book blind without reading the synopsis or any reviews.

I chose it based on the amazing cover alone. Not only is this a story about mental illness but also of first love; a strong and addictive first love. It was powerful!! Their second encounter takes place in the lunch room and goes equally poorly leaving Maggie stumped wanting to know who the grumpy, very sexy new boy really is. Cue the violins and happy cartoon bunnies. I was in the middle of a Disney moment. Because this guy was gorgeous. And we were standing so close to each other.

If he hadn't been holding onto a barely contained rage directed at yours truly, it could have almost been construed as romantic. She has a mouth on her that made me laugh out loud. I loved how strong and courageous she was. Her feelings for Clay were palpable and I truly understood her need to be there and support Clay even when things were not looking good.

It ripped me apart to read Maggie's slow break down and see how the relationship took its toll on her. Being with someone that's so unhealthy can cripple even the sanest person. I'm a firm believer that we do not chose who we love that love chooses us and it broke my heart that Maggie couldn't get what she needed from Clay because he was so incredibly unstable, he didn't have it to give to her.

Let me say you will fall head over heels in love with Clay. That nurturing instinct takes over when you read this book and all you want to do is save this boy.

Help him in some way. Hold him. I don't even know but I wanted to save Clay from himself. This subject is hard, really, really hard. Clay has a dynamic personality with so much potential but his issues are immense. Clay and Maggie fall in love. It's such a dysfunctional, unhealthy but passionate and strong type of love.

I remember what it was like as a teenager to feel a love that's so strong it's crippling and becomes the center of your universe. Maggie and Clay have that and you become enraptured in their feelings for each other and the constant yo-yo state of their relationship. Their love story is an angsty book lovers dream, it's so full of gut wrenching pain.

I guarantee you will cry!!!!! I cried like a baby. It made it to my favorite's shelf without a doubt. It was an incredible moving, thought provoking book. I am so invested in these characters. The ending left me screaming, needing and craving more. I can't wait to get my hands on book 2. I think this author is brilliant and her writing was absolutely wonderful.

I loved it. View all 39 comments. Dec 09, Annie Brewer rated it it was amazing Shelves: nook-books , favorite , depressing-dark-mental-health-issue , romance , tearjerker , angst , emotionally-devastating , tbr-kindle , hard-core , not-for-everyone. Wow, I'm in absolute tears and depression right now.

This was such a hard book to read. I cried through most of it. I need to get my emotions together to write my review. But after reading the sneak peek for the sequel which is in Clay's POV, I am more than positive that there is light at the end of the tunnel, somewhere.

I need the sequel now!!! My heart hurts so bad for these characters. Full review to come Wow, I'm in absolute tears and depression right now. Full review to come Okay, I am not sure how to start this.

This book still weighs heavy on my mind since I finished at 4 am. But I will start out by giving this author kudos, for addressing such a heavy issue and doing it tragically beautiful. I don't know how she did it, but this is definitely a book that will stay with me for a long time. I've known people in my life who suffered from bi-polar disorder and personality disorder.

These are NOT easy issues to cover. But somehow, I was thrown into this darkness that I could not climb out of, much like Clay Reed. So, with that said Good job A Meredith Walters. It proves me to be even more of a masochist, but I am okay with that. It's books like these that make me love reading so much more. And if that makes me sick, then so fucking be it. So we have Maggie Young, a seventeen year old who is in her senior year of high school. She's a sweet and caring person.

She loves her family and her two best friends, Rachel and Daniel and would do anything for them. Her life is anything but fun. She does the same things everyday and is not at all spontaneous. She starts to wish there was something more to life than this monotony she lives through. Don't we all?? That is He's the new student who moved from Florida.

He's dark, mysterious and oh so good looking. Everyone tries to bully him, especially the popular jackass Paul who makes a scene at lunch one day. Yelling at Clay, calling him a pussy and breaking his MP3 player. But Clay does nothing but keep his head down and his gaze anywhere but on Paul. To Maggie, it's very disconcerting that he would let such a prick humiliate him in front of everyone so she intervenes. He's not happy about the save, letting Maggie know it was not her business.

What is he a Damsel in Distress? No guy wants a girl to "save" them from public humliation-it's embarrassing and takes their "man card" away. Clay: After all the cold shoulders and hissing that Clay does, Maggie has had enough. She's intrigued by his secretive side and wants to know more about him so she makes it a mission to butt into his life. And she won't back down. Much to Clay's dismay, he finally lets her in.. He shows her a little bit of living and she finally gets to see what spontaneous is like.

She stops hanging out with her friends to spend as much time with Clay as possible. Their friendship grows and soon becomes something more, they fall in love.

It also becomes destructive and fast. Because there seems to be a wall between them, something that Clay is still hiding from her. When she finally learns his family history and of his sickness, she does everything in her power to save him. But is love really enough? Maggie and Clay: Ahhhhh, this book. It broke me to pieces.

I was on pins and needles. Constantly biting my nails in fear, frustration, pain and anger. Clay suffers from mental health issues. They are inconsiderate, self-centered, evil people. They always blamed him for his issues and called him every bad name in the book, making him feel like an embarrassment.

How the hell can you call yourself a parent when you're anything but Yes, excuse the cursing but his mother made me want to throw my nook at my wall and then sob. I hated how she acted toward Maggie and blamed her for everything that's wrong with him. Fuck you. That woman got under my skin like no other. Seriously, I know this is a hard book to read but I couldn't stop-and didn't want to.

I've dealt with this kind of stuff and its not pretty. But the author really did a good job of dragging me into the pits of hell with Clay and all I wanted to do was It was so hard to read what he was going through. I cried, I sobbed and I wanted to help Maggie too. She was so helpless, thinking that her love would save him-them. That all you need is love. But sometimes, even love isn't enough. Sometimes the darkness sucks you under so quickly, you can't breathe Just when I thought things were going to be okay I was a mess.

I couldn't breathe. I cried so much. I felt Maggie's pain, her helplessness, her fear I loved Clay. He was a broken and very sick boy. I wanted him to have a happy ending.

But sometimes even happy endings are impossible. I don't know if this book is for everyone, but those that can handle such monumental issues will like this. Those that are masochists like me I want to discuss this book with others. I want opinions If you choose to read this, just know there is a sequel I want it I'm dying here I want more.

I love them. Maggie and Clay. I want them to have a happy ending. Dammit to hell. This is me at the last page I loved Maggie for being one of the only people that really loved Clay. The only one that wanted to help him-even though she may in some way enabled his tendencies.

But what did she know? She got in too deep and couldn't get out, because she loved him enough to try and help him. Unlike his parents who did nothing but make him feel worthless and want to end his life. There were many things that happened in this book that made you question whether it was right or wrong. Maggie wanted to live a perfect normal life with her amazing boyfriend, and sometimes he was amazing.

But in an instant, his moods went off the handle and he was a complete dick. How do you justify your relationship with that person? That's not love, yet she would not give up on him.

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